Hrm.. Td dah post 1 entry. Ni nk pos 1 lg. Tiba2 dtg mood yg paling ak benci. Mood sedih... Bila dtg mood ni, blog aku ni la tmpt ak mengadu. kat sni la aku luah semua. Sekurang nya, pedih yg di pendam, dpt dikurangkan
The end... Hrm. Yup. The end of my relationship between me n her... Agak pedih. Sbb kali kedua kena mcm ni. Silap ak kot. Fall in love with someone dat already have their beloved person. X leh nk ckp pe. Mmg terkedu bila berlaku.
Sometimes, aku pk. Break ke 2 ni berlaku sbb aku nya fault ke waktu ak dgn ex ak dulu. Tuhan nk balas ke kesalahan yg ak bt pada ex ak dlu? Hrm... Maybe! Maybe not! Bila dh break, even br skjap perkenalan, mmg pedih tuk move on. Certain people, just take 1 to 2 days only to cheer up, let gone by gone, moving on...
Tp bkn ak. Sesingkat mn perhubungan ak dgn si dia, selama mn hbgn ak dgn dia, ak tetap sama. Payah tuk menerima nya. Sbb pe? Hati ak dh diserahkan pada dia. Ad org ckp, jgn mudah menyatakan "I LOVE YOU" or "SAYA SAYANG KAMU" pd seseorng. Tp aku, mudah je, sbb mudah sgt terpaut dgn hati perempuan yg cuba tuk ak kenali itu.
Bila dh mcm ni, ak btol2 hang! Dah jd lagging! X tau nk bt pe. Sedih, pedih dh pegang seluruh badan ak. Mcm mayat hidup. Bagai ditinggal kan bergantung tak bertali!
But, I think I know why this happening. What? Cuz it happens, so I can find new person more lovely? Haha! Yes, yes, that maybe one of the reason. But that's not the reason/answer I looking for! Maybe, It's time for me to get more focus on my s2d! I forgot, even I have a girlfriend, but she cant help me on passing my exam. Yes, she can help me study, but I'm the one dat answer my paper, not her.
So, what I need to do now. I have to think positive! Maybe there's a reason why Allah make me this way. The reason is, I'm already 24 years old, I need to focus on my s2d 1st, I need to rebuilt my reputation, and need to rebuilt my career!
About love, I think let the love come by itself. Bleh ke ak bt camtu? haha. Sbb ak la yg slalu duk gila2 cr cinta. Hrm.. need to try this method for once! Let the love comes to me. Insyaallah. X kemana. Kalo xde jgk my love yg dtg, I have to prepare wit da plan that I carry so long... And the plan is.... hehe! Biarlah Rhsia! Nnt dpt tau jgk nya la..
For the time being, yes it's hard to me to carry on da life without her, but just like b4, lmbat laun, I will carry on my life. Even though I had move on, I still and always remember all the good time I have with her! Cuz, while I'm wit her, she show me the light! She drove me crazy! She helps me! She accompany me day n night, susah n senang...
Hopefully, ak dpt cekal dlm hal ni. Insyaallah.
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